23 1/2

2 12 2009

Here is 23 1/2
my hair in rollers
on the toilet I sat on
as a child
as a teenager
I am a grown woman
my head is clear
but my heart is broke
just like my bank account
days are blending in with one another
I wonder if I’m doing this right
my life
not exactly like I planned
but still existing somehow
the ants that bite my feet
at night
remind me I’m alive.
I’m losing weight
and losing patience
to match the mind I lost last year.
I can never catch the man I love.
He is like a vapor.
Come close and he’s gone again.
But my skin tone is beautiful lately
So there is something to smile
about anyway
right here at 23 1/2

©2004 KaLeah Hicks





Danger Pt.2

2 12 2009

I sing a f***ked up song
if you know it, sing along
it goes one, two
one, two, one, two
it goes what’s a me
without a you?
it goes on into the night
where the candles burn
it goes deeper than that
it wonders will I learn
a Melodie like Ms.
a charming man
a silly wish
two turntables
and a Grimm Brothers fable
it goes on and on
it gets worse and worse
it gets sick enough
for you to call a nurse
I got a song so wild
it makes a statue smile
so when you hear my song
you know something’s gone wrong
and maybe you better take cover

©2004 KaLeah Hicks





Freestyle Friday, pt.1

23 10 2009


Hmm.

I been there, I done that , I looked it in the eyes.
You might be overwhelmed and I might not be surprised.
You might be excited, but I’ve already been.
You might be a nice chick, but I can be a better friend.
You might make quite scene, but I make quite a queen
and I would stay by his side – pockets fat, pockets lean.
See I can take it at face value, for what it is today
And not a long time ago and a far, far away
What it is right now is, what it always would’ve been
Spiritual enlightenment, not a fad, a game, a trend
Not a surface scratching pastime
A mental manifest, so sublime
It’s deeper than you realize
and difficult to internalize.

Enough of that.

So who am I?

I’m neither foe nor friend
Enemy nor comrade
neutral…
This isn’t really a battle anyway, silly.
If we create our own destiny,
I came, I saw, I assessed.
And one day,
if the cosmic timing is right,
I just might
be back.
Keep the candle in the window.

JD8KHFAM23DT




don’t whisper – September 2007

6 09 2009

don’t whisper.

sweet nothings
mean nothing from
the tongue of no one
someone I can’t
see, hear, feel, touch, know
don’t whisper,
just yell
the truth in
a language I can understand.
we have been us so long
that I don’t know
how not to be
but if it must be,
I’ll learn.
just yell.
from where you see it
hills and long highways
away from this love
from where you see it
on the other side of
compassion
off the turnpike for
reaction
near the volatile intersection
of provocation and patience
I push
(keep pushing)
and hope you’ll
play
don’t whisper.
I can’t understand
your mumbling, nor
your jokes. I laughed
to temporarily dull
that pain and
shade the harsh
spotlight of reality:
while I am
who I am
always me,
a part of me can
only be who you made me.
just yell this
what am I supposed to do?
it feels wrong
(as I know better)
but I can’t help
the difficulty
in defining me
without you
don’t whisper.
the din of disappointed dreams is
too loud.
just yell,
so I can hear
the words you give me.
how do I begin to live?




Untitled – June 3, 2004 (Not a typo. This is 5 years old!)

3 06 2009

Away

from the absurdity of
the word, around
us is a sphere
of cautious emotion
Away
from the insane glare of
reality
there’s just you
and me.
And I dance,
swirling skirts
made of my
fragile feelings
flutter in the wind.
No song,
just your heartbeat.
Away
from your life and my past
the way things were
how they shoulda been.
Away
from whatever
that thing is that
keeps you away
from me.
that makes me
the wrong decision to make.
We look at one another but
don’t smile
don’t speak
And I silently pray
you see love in my eyes
while I search for life in yours.
Away
from the fears
we both wrap up in at night
like children in blankies
Instead of holding each other
we cling to
crippling phobias
about love and
what it does,
what it looks like,
what it says.
Things we need to put
away.